afraid

i'm afraid of the consequences
of deeply loving you
eversince we're together
and even before that

i'm a farsighted person
which would consider all the pros and cons
for every single things in my life
and yet our story are just too hard
and heavy for me to think

my mind keeps thinking about the end
even we're both agreed for not to think
about the beginning of the end
and enjoy our time to the fullest

yes, i am an optimistic person
but yet not really a good risk taker
a pretty good kisser, perhaps
but again, not a strong lover

i always believe in my heart
and my intuition is always right
but nevermind just fuck off everything
let's us just follow our feelings

i love u, sayang!